In addition to subtracting, one has to eat healthy at an older age because it would be awful to feel overwhelmed with a gang of weight. I am about 141 pounds right now and it shifts from that to maybe a couple pounds lower, but geeezz..being overweight makes me feel just awful! More horrible than feeling weak! I have experimented with having smoked a box of cigarettes, yes how stupid! Of me, but I noticed how weak and out of character, I get whenever I do feel weak and just sick of smoking that shit, I know that someone once thought a body was just for the time being and whoever the fuck invented cigarettes was not thinking of one's health and the fucking twisted thing is that they are legal! It blows my mind to think how I am now running out of breath after that one box, and how it might have done damage inside of me after that one box.
     Smoking weed does not make me feel that way, on the contrary it helps me to get into a happy mood, yes, yes, it might have it's coming down effect like me getting mad or making my eyes feel tired.
     I understand how money fucked so many people up and it made them turn into bullshit that might of made them think of how money would get them ahead of everyone else...understandable how it might have or maybe they just' dreamed about it and now I happen to see how so many people that thought they would be rich and famous are just scum from the bottom of other's shoes and perhaps they once got alllll that they hoped for and a great establishments they became aware of taking time to realize and come to think about God.
     See, everything falls into place when we come to a STILL' that is not having to wake up early in the morning to get to a job and hurry to school maybe to learn math that really is boring and numbers does some shit to people. I like stuff and I like shiny jewelry and new shoes and new clothes but does that really matter to God?
     God is not looking at us from the outside in, God sees us from the inside out and feeling horrible and feeling with the sense of having had polluted my body with more cancer ,(I pray it didn't happen that way) But having that in my conscious makes me feel HORRIBLE! what stupid actions I come to take by polluting my body first of all and being shy from seven more cancer radiation treatments. For crying out loud! I have to question my actions and the way I am a contradiction to God and Jesus that might have taken mercy on me and this body to maybe make me well again. Who in their right mind would do that? Not so many people, not smart people, not people that get bothered by nerves and sense anxiety of whatever might come around?
     I do get mad! I get so mad that I can imagine how some people just feel like ending their lives
or getting lost in drugs and alcohol then end up feeling worse with pain in their liver or having polluted lungs and not being able to leave those bodies. Is that mind blowing for some. It's mind blowing to me having had to go thru this cancer treatments ,that were so hard to deal with and the sickness after effect of it all. It's mind blowing how I still let an invisible negative force try to dominate me. It's mind blowing that I have the nerve to smoke a pack of cigarettes now at this point in my life that I might be over the breast cancer they supposedly found in me. Supposedly because I honestly feel I just wanted to be cut opened and scared. Mind blowing to think so negative. Mind blowing to think some people are now scared for their lives to get their heads blown off. Honestly if someone had the BALLS to say ,"Daisy I need to kill you", I would say ,"Ok do it, just make sure you tell God your reasons why"! Send my spirit to a better place and pray I don't come back to haunt you for the rest of your life!
     I mean, it's stupid to go around thinking one can just kill people and not think of how that person might come back to haunt them and never leave them alone. If I thought someone had to die I would tell God why, I would pray their spirits and soul go to God and I would not kill for Jealousy. Some people don't think that the outcome of committing a murder might be a lifetime weight on their shoulder's and only God can or might not 'Give a fuck to hear some", So what happens knowing this?
NO ONE WANTS TO THINK ,BECAUSE EVERYONE DECIDES TO FOCUS ON OTHER BULLSHIT! People, I see how so many have came to a point where the tools they decided to use are no longer working! The tools are broken or don't work or might be too heavy now! Sad reality, but can that be possible? That this is going on with our parents that tell us to shut the fuck up? Do you think they fucked had us as children and now we have to feel their bullshit!? I think it's possible and I don't fucken like it! I REALLY WANT TO BE ADOPTED AT AGE 40..new family, new parents that I probably don't give a fuck to be around! Parents that are strict with love and not brutality and sending us to the streets to raise ourselves because of shit they have done. This shit that I had to learn just by seeing how the world turns was not taught to me. God has taken mercy on me and has showed me somewhat a past, present and an unknown future but all by me always having to be alone, having to think for myself the difference between right and wrong, not thinking of ways to kill people but having these nerves as well that perhaps seek my loving spirit and peaceful self when I do focus on what's important and do simple things I like. But this weight comes and goes, I don't know why I am forced to feel it, but maybe someday that weight will be on those that need to feel it and some then turn to other religions ,a religion where a body is just a body and there is not much that body feels.

     March something or another Year
     March something or another Year which brings me to think some more and takes those on trains to their nearest valley's----why their nearest valley's? (questions in paranthesis;light bulb')
     Light bulb, light bulb, (why are you on all the time, light bulb)
     That will have got to cost a fortune to turn you on and never let you go into exhaust light bulb. You know----if you were cleaned every day and actually taken care of and talked to, you wouldn't sag from the bottom that often, light bulb.
     I must admit this writing of daisy's has got me a little bit crazy---Can't sleep at night thinking of daisy, I can't eat--thinking of her, I can't even hold up a conversation that matter's just wanting to kill for her. I must say, I know we are not in china, but free air tickets----jason is free to give out, via princessa gals. Do you think God sent Jesus here to die and be born again and not be able to command people to kill for him? Do you think Jesus had to ask God if he could kill or not? Paranthesis? (Do you)
     Do you honestly think, God would give up his son to die for us and continue to die and be reborn ------------------As anyone, anything, at any time, in any place------------That's just when he really wants to, just probably stretching or something 2---0----1-----6! Fashionably ,very , extinqtly, fashionably Late, I must say.




     Daisy's Cleaning will consist of all your investments being taken away
It will consist of all your set teaching's as a crook will be appropriate if taugh by a leader (ratas)
Birds sing, rats like cheese, and I look a frieght! A freight of meaningless things beyond my force is gotten out of talents, already! Talent's that are obviously painfull in the ass as I take a diarreah of all the bullshit I get fed by these witches that have not only---CONTAMINATED YOUR PLANETGOD! But they went and scattered and are now running MAD wild! Contaminating everyone by making profit out of souls that don't want to be longer children but adults with power and silencers ----LIKE" everyday----by hand fulls!
     Do you think we are going to be asked?
Paranthesis----(Do you) Paranthesis? (Do you) now?
     Daisy can remain as Daisy----but Jesus does not have to.
Slip and fall's are only a pass time for this stupid woman, think of the inventions!
Think of the way her name blossoms all over the place! Have you been to Kenneth Hahn Park and were the oil pumps and the ocean is viewed as one hikes on top of the mountains and all the different colored daisies' scattered aLL over the place. (can you see? Do you have a car? Money? Gas? Internet access? Can you see?) Paranthesis......
Can we